I'm in a "Fed-up, don't want to talk about it" kinda mood.
Monday, October 30, 2006
I'm in a "Fed-up, don't want to talk about it" kinda mood.
Dear you,
You know, there's this saying, since a long time ago, that only true friends would say the truth and that only true friends would tell you your flaws so that you can change? How i wished reality was so. Who wouldn't want to say the truth? I would love to, but sadly, reality check! Apparently everyone has feelings. There's so much I want to say to you, so much i need you to know how un-nerving you can be. You're pushing me to the brink of my limits. There's only so much a person can take, and i'm trying really, really hard to accept you for who you are. I want to tell you what went wrong, but i know in the end, all I'll get, is just excuses and more excuses for your actions. I tell myself, that it's wrong to feel this way of your good friend and i should be always there for you despite what kind of a tyrant you have been. Honestly, it's been a bumpy ride and I'm finding it a chore to self-delude myself that it's only a passing phase of yours. Deception to preserve your feelings-or lack thereof is wearing me out. When i see you, your actions, I see nothing but irritance. But, i tell myself, no, she's still your friend afterall.
There's only so much I can say,
Here's what's left of my patience:
I'm sorry.
I'm over it.
Goodbye.
Signed,
Yours Truely.
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10:51 PM
I'm in a "see that droplet rolling down your nose" kinda mood.
Monday, October 23, 2006
I'm in a "see that droplet rolling down your nose" kinda mood.
It's an unexplainable feeling when a droplet runs down your nose or your cheeks. yeah. it's something that can't be put into words. you've just got to experience it yourself to understand what and how it feels like.
I want to head out and stand in the rain. Sit on a bench outdoors, rain pours. Drenched. At that split moment, you can feel people from all walks of life passing you by, all rushing to get home - comfort zone. i beg to differ. In the rain, everyone else is too immersed in their own lifes that they neglect you, fail to recognise the existence of a drenched being.
Alone. Cold. Reflection. That's what it's all about.
That's what i do when i'm sad. But it's not raining anymore. It hasn't in a long while. I miss the rain.
Nobody can differentiate if that droplet is a rain droplet, or a tear...
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3:33 AM
I'm in a "round, round, the big head of his" kinda mood.
Friday, October 20, 2006
I'm in a "round, round, that big head of his" kinda mood.
What i'm going to talk about is prolly a blur to many, but the A04 peeps would surely get it. HAHA. This is especially for Fatin as well. Get your hands off my N.N! *you know who i mean* He's mine! All mine!
"Are you with me?"
*Faints*
"Like absolutely."
Fatin, clearly it's like an indirect proposal. He's re-comfirming the love we have. :P
Re-NEWal.
HAHA. Mine, mine. N.N is all mine. :)
Beat that head.
Round, round.
here, we go again.
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3:25 PM
I'm in a "Timeless,classic" kinda mood.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I'm in a "Timeless, Classic" kinda mood.You know, sometimes i wonder where Shakesphere got the ideas for his plays from, hearsay was that he was a copycat. But hey, if you were able to be an imitation yet receive such great responses for your play? I guess we could just overlook that point cause afterall, you're still a great sucess. You've got to applaud that guy. Sometimes i think it was fun living in those days. - I want to try living in those days. You get to sit in carriages, ride horses all day, wear classy gowns and attend balls like lectures- in a much more fun way of course. Ironically, the people of the past went to so many balls till they got weary and dreaded it. Sounds like our lecture classes these days huh.Oh well, hopefully someone would just wear a classic tail coat tux and sweep me off my feet!So long, so long, oh parting is such sweet sorrow. "I thank thee."Jo, you promised me you'll speak like that with me while shopping! HAHA.
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6:49 PM
I'm in a "we would have been good, great together" kinda mood.
Monday, October 09, 2006
I'm in a "We'd have been good, even great together" kinda mood.
Guys, note this:
"How do you expect her to fall for you, when you're not there to catch her?"
Every girl needs a man who's always there to catch her when she falls. (:
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8:29 PM
I'm in a "Dupree-di-di-do" kinda mood.
Promos are like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y over! Haha. But ya' know, the joy is just not there. Hmm. :\ *shrugs*
Seriously, i want to catch "You, Me and Dupree" in Cinemas now! =D
PS: *It might be the lucky you I'll ask to catch it with me!* :P
Is Owen Wilson adorable or just adorable? HAHA.
I'm in a "don't have to put up a fight" kinda mood.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
I'm in a "don't have to put up a fight" kinda mood
"Sometimes you can't make it,
The best you can do is fake it."
I need a hug.
A big, warm, fuzzy hug.
That's all that matters now.
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7:28 PM
I'm in a "Once bitten, twice shy" kinda mood.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
I'm in a "Once bitten, Twice shy" kinda mood.
Just had my Literature Promotional Exam paper about three hours ago and the poem was just absolutely breath-taking. Haha. As in, i sure don't want to be mushy and cliche and what not, but honestly, it was a piece of poem you just can't miss.
Twice Shy.
Her scarf a la Bardot,
In suede flats for the walk,
She came with me one evening
For air and friendly talk.
We crossed the quiet river,
Took the embankment walk.
Traffic holding its breath,
Sky a tense diaphragm:
Dusk hung like a backcloth
That shook where a swan swam,
Tremulous as a hawk
Hanging deadly, calm.
A vacuum of need
Collapsed each hunting heart
But tremulously we held
As hawk and prey apart,
Preserved classic decorum,
Deployed our talk with art.
Our juvenilia
Had taught us both to wait,
Not to publish feeling
And regret it all too late-
Mushroom loves already
Had puffed and burst in hate.
So, chary and excited
As a thrush linked on a hawk
We thrilled to the March twilight
With nervous childish talk:
Still waters running deep
Along the embankment walk.
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4:36 PM
I'm in a "Total screw up" kinda mood.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I'm in a "Total screw up" kinda mood"
Yepp, here says it all.
Out for a nice dinner with my family and this happens:
FYI: we were walking along this narrow pathway, but beside my mum was this wide open area which you could just cut through...
Mum:Hey, better walk faster... There's this guy behind who wants to walk through.
Me:Yepp, okie... But if he wants he can always cut across the open space isn't it?
Guy:(manages to forcefully get past me, turns around) Little girl, *Blah blah* some all out confrontation directed towards my mum and I.
Me:*thinks: Oh lord.* It was just a comment. Not as if you had to take it seriously.
Guy:Preaches... YADA YADA...
and he finally walks away, leaving my mum and I staring in bewilderment.
Me:*thinks:Asshole.*
FYI to You*, I am not your little girl. I can freaking bear a child already. (sounds wrong.. but just to get the point through).
Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. Please respect that. WHO the F*** are YOU to judge what my mum and I says. Seriously, Get a F***ing LIFE. For Pete's sake. Geez.
Well, maybe he's just a desperate and loony guy who so badly wants attention by letting his thoughts be known-to strangers that is. Whatever it is, you sure got our attention. But all in all, you ruined our day. Totally. So, I've got a word to describe you, a tribute from my mum and I, for leaving such a "fantastic" impression. - Bastard! In your face!(sorry for all the risque language, he seriously deserves it though)
PS: Not as if he's good-looking. I might just let it go. :P
Now, I'm feeling better already...
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