I'm in an "abyss" kinda mood.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
I'm in an "abyss" kinda mood.I thought absoluteness would never be in my dictionary.
Sadly, the shadows of it kept appearing.
These images I find it hard to forget.
I cried.
I cried so hard,
I thought the tears would never stop.
But it did.
The shower washed it away.
Just like it did to my smiles.
I came out of the shower,
Told myself to dry those tears.
I became someone more.
Someone that now held the strength,
The strength to keep absolute, together.
I told myself never to cry again.
Vulnerability.
Heck, throw it away.
I'm going to be stronger now.
I'm not going to shed a tear,
Neither am I feeling the need to smile.
I don't deserve my smile.
I washed it away remember?
Just like I did to those tears.
Time is the best healer.
The pain today,
Is less than the pain yesterday.
And the pain tomorrow,
will be less than today.
You thought you knew everything.
But sadly,
Everything was nothing at all.
Fullstop at
11:34 PM
I'm in a "Claustrophobic" kinda mood.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I'm in a "Claustrophobic" kinda mood.
It's been some time since I've blogged. It's late this time and I'm just feeling out of sorts these days. Just feel i'm struggling so hard even though the waters' just knee height. It feels as if I can't survive. It's just so hard to articulate this feeling. Nobody will feel or see things the same. No individual does.
Do you understand this feeling?
It's as if I'm trying to get to the other end of the road.
People are surging towards you. Yet.
You are going in the opposite direction.
You try so hard to turn back, follow the flow instead.
NO. You just can't.
People are pushing you back. Back to the same place.
You try so hard to get to the other end.
Can't breathe easy.
STOP. Please just STOP.
I can't stand this claustrophobic feeling.
I just want to get to the other end.
WHY can't I?
Built it up to watch it fall
like it meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave, the best of me
But, it was never,
never,
Enough.
Fullstop at
1:37 AM
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michelle/mich/MY-SHELL/MY-Selle
tpjc.
exceptionally nice if you are. :)
bookworm.
hibernating individual.
games.
my instincts are naturally 90% accurate.
bad with numbers.
loves deep, charming eyes. Everything starts with the eyes.
soft, cuddly things are fav.
